Monday, April 25, 2011

today....

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

i just... i trusted them. the 2 people in this world i was supposed to be able to trust with everything, and now i just, i don't know anymore. 

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Noteable.Quotables

May 9, 2011
If I could relive my life, I wouldn't. Cause everything I've done, I've never once regretted doing them. And everything I am is everything I was meant to be.

Not everything's gonna be picture perfect... Things sometimes take time and have rough times to get through... Before you can get there but if you give up on things you want, everything you've gone through ends up being completely worthless.
Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.


So I'm just thinking about how much I don't want my life to be boring. There is so much I want to do and so many places I want to go - but I don't really think it's ever gonna happen. I just don't wanna be one of those people who work somewhere they hate or live somewhere they don't want to live. But I feel like I'm gonna live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see. I feel like my dreams are to unrealistic

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO- HOO what a ride!"


People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.


If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.


Tom: : What happens if you fall in love?
Summer: Well, you don't believe that, do you?
Tom: It's love. It's not Santa Claus. - 500 Days of Summer


This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total misreading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parent's marriage she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story - 500 Days of Summer

If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now
- 500 Days of Summer

Go for it? You can do it? That's not inspirational; that's suicidal! If pickles goes for it right there that's a dead cat. Lies, were liars think about it, why do people buy these things? It's not because they wanna say how they feel, people buy cards cause they can't say how they feel or they're afraid too. We provide the service that lets them off the hook. You know what? I say to hell with it. Lets level with America at least let them speak for themselves right I mean look, look. What is this, what does this say? ‘Congratulations on your new baby.’ How about ‘congratulations on your new baby, guess that's it for hanging out, nice knowing ya.’ How about this one? With all the pretty hearts on the front, I think I know where this one’s going. Yup ‘Happy Valentine’s Day sweetheart, I love you.’ Isn't that sweet? Ain't love grand? This is exactly what I'm talking about. What does that even mean, love? Do you know? Do you? Anybody? If somebody gave me this card, Mr. Vance, I'd eat it. It's these cards, and the movies and the pop songs, they're to blame for all the lies and the heartache, everything. We're responsible. I'M responsible. I think we do a bad thing here. People should be able to say how they feel, how they really feel, not ya know, some words that some stranger put in their mouth. Words like love, that don't mean anything. Sorry, I'm sorry, I um, I quit. There's enough bullshit in the world without my help
 - 500 Days of Summer

I will NOT be a goody bag at your pity party!
 - Nick and Nora's Inifinite Playlist

I don't know. I don't know, he's just always been there, and you just feel ignored for long enough and, it's just nice to feel special, sometimes. - Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist

I'm full of shit, okay? No I'm... I'm knowingly full of shit. Because, uh... because uh, uh... I have... I have never cared about anybody or anything in my entire life. And the thing is, everybody just kind of accepted that. Like, "That's just Jamie." And then you!... Jesus. You. You. You didn't see me that way. I have never known anyone who actually believed that I was enough. Until I met you. And then you made me believe it, too. So, uh... unfortunately... I need you. And you need me.
- Love and other Drugs

Sometimes the things you want the most don't happen and what you least expect happens. I don't know - you meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. And then you meet one person and your life is changed forever.
-Love and other Drugs

I wish I could give you what you're looking for, but I don't know what it is. There's a part of you that you keep closed off from everyone, including me. It's as if I'm not the one you're really with. Your mind is on someone else - The Notebook

We never said our love was evergreen or as unchanging as the sea, but if you can still remember: stop and think of me
- Phantom of the Opera

There you have it, folks. Young love. Full of promise, full of hope, ignorant of reality - Valentine's Day

Love is the only shocking act left on the planet. – Valentine’s Day

To some people, love doesn't exist unless you acknowledge it in front of other people. - Valentine's Day

You don't step in to love, you fall in. Head over heels. Have you ever seen someone fall head over heels in love? It's ugly, bro. - Valentine's Day

When you love someone, you love all of them... you gotta love everything about them, not just the good things but the bad things too. The things that you find lovable and the things you don't. – Valentine’s Day

May 6, 2011
I do honestly believe that people enter our lives for a reason. That everyone who we meet, who forms an impression has something to teach us. Everything that happens to us is an experience, and because of that it can never be bad. an experience can only be good because it all serves to shape the person that we are, the person that we become


Everybody asks, 'Why me? What did I do to deserve this?' The thing is, that's the wrong question. We should be asking ourselves: 'How on earth did I manage to get such an amazing opportunity to prove how strong I am?


Isn't it funny how the world changes sometimes? How the streets you've walked your entire life suddenly seem darker, colder? How the silence isn't so quiet anymore? How eyes you've barely even noticed, now look at nothing but you? How the walk home every night is no longer a routine, but a victory. And then you begin to wonder ... maybe it's not the world that changed, maybe it's just you .. and then, suddenly, you begin to wonder all over again


we are told to remember the idea, not the man because a man can fail. he can be caught, he can be killed and forgotten, but 400 years later, an idea can still change the world - V for Vendetta


It is easy to forget how perfectly life works out. When you are down, you believe that things never work in your favor. But if you look back, you see that, in many cases, things happened exactly the way they needed to


Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not on the calendar, it's not a birthday, it's not a new year, it's an event --big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to.


At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than your dream. The castle, well it may not be a castle. And it's not so important that it's happily ever after – just that it's happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away.


Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.


It's a trip ya know? when you're a kid you have this picture of how your life is gonna be, and it never crosses your mind that it's not gonna end up like that


Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you, and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. it isn't about who you kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. Its not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, its not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and its not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love. and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love one else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.


life is truly a ride. we're all strapped in, and no one can stop it. as you make your way from youth to adulthood to maturity, sometimes you put your arms up and scream; sometimes you just hang onto the bar in front of you. but the ride is the thing. i think the most you can hope for at the end of life is that your hair is messed up, you're out of breath, and you didn't throw up


Stepping up. It's a simple concept. It basically means to rise above yourself; to do a little more, to show you something special. Life's funny sometimes; it can push pretty hard like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back like when your best friend and your boyfriend leave you alone, like when you pull the trigger or light the flame and you can't take it back. Like I said, in sports they call this 'stepping up'. In life, I call it pushing back.


Did you ever meet someone and have them totally change your life? That every thought you ever had about life and yourself was changed … the way you look at life and people and even breathe. It's like all that time you were hiding inside yourself till that person came into your life and suddenly everything was different. But even though they changed the way you looked and felt about things, they made you perhaps a little more cynical and untrusting of the world. And somehow it has to be learned that it's possible to trust again. And not everyone is going to stare you in the face and lie to you. But it's learning that, that's the hard part. It's not going to happen in a day … a week, or a month, but pretty soon you'll begin to realize that not everyone is going to hurt you. And that's when you're happy.

i don't know who i am anymore...

I don't know. It's like, there's this person that you want to be for other people. To make them proud of you. And then there's you.
there's this me. this me that nobody sees. and as much as i want to be me, i know that people won't accept me.
i mean, i guess some people know me. know parts of me. kate knows things about me that nobody else knows. and chandler knows parts. marc knows parts, and if they all met up and exchanged mental notes, they'd know me. but nobody knows ME. they all know the me i pretend to be. the one i am so that people can be proud of me. so people will accept me, and be my friend.... be friend to the lie....

Thursday, April 21, 2011

summer...

This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total misreading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parent's marriage she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.
best. movie. ever.
thank you kate and chandler.

summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer.summer
......................................................................
i can't wait. any more. gah!!!

do you feel?

I can't help it
I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes us look great

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things I guess

 
these past few weeks... umm, well, they haven't been so great. not gonna lie to you. from stupid rumors, friend issues, health stuff, all around suckiness? oh yeah. and the next 6 weeks of my life are going to be hell. yeah. here is the story of my life from now until June 7, k?

4/22/11:
7:30: Leave for BYU.
1:00: Return from BYU.
1-5: AP Biology Review.
5-... whenver i drop, cleaning, running my brothers around, etc. basically whatever my little brothers need, and my parents don't want to do.

4/23/11:
8-9:45: AP Biology Review
10-12: Stake Youth Choir Practice
1:45: Stake President interview:/
3ish?: help Ky with her hair for prom.

4/25-4/29: CRTs.

4/26/11: MUN. i have to be at the school at 6:30... AM. sucks yeah?

5/2-5/6: Hardcore AP test prep...

5/9: AP Biology test. ugghhh.

5/10: AP US Government Test.

5/11: AP Spanish Test

5/19: AP US History Test.

5/23-6/1: hardcore finals prep.

6/2-6/7: finals.

after that, nail school, cosmetology school, hopefully a little sleep. gah. my life...

now, for my vent of the day. starting with some more song lyrics.
from Perfect by Simple Plan.

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

i've been all around having feelings of inadequecy. i'm not the perfect child everyone thinks i should be. but here's what i do know without a doubt.

i am meghan lanae carpenter.
i am not perfect.
i am a daughter of God, who loves me.
i was atoned for by a loving older brother.
i will be accountable for my choices.
i try to be a good friend.
it doesn't always work.
i am a loved member of my family.
i am not worthless...

please don't turn your back... you just don't understand.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

to my veiwers in...

This one is just a quick note to my wonderful veiwers in india and malaysia. y'all are awesome. that is all.

Friday, April 15, 2011

spring.break

and i didn't care what we did. i was with you and that's all that mattered.
gah. i can't believe it's already friday! no me gusta! hmmm... let's see here. recap? lets.
monday: got up at like...
9. and went to the mall
with Kems and Ky.
tuesday: Cleaned my
grandparent's house
and worked for my
aunt.
wednesday: worked
for my aunt. again :]
thursday: UVU tour.
orange julius.
walmart :]
asked chandler to
prom. random
adventures of chandler
and meghan :]
friday: laundry. malls
with kayli and kems.
prom dresses. alot of them.
dinner with aunt donna.

and now i'm laying on my bed
blogging.

not exactly the spring break i was hoping for.... or planning for. or... wanted really. but it's been good. in its own special way. much needed recouping time for meghan.

i.like.shorts
andattractiveboys.
and getting lost in provo.
SUMMER.
cometomefaster.
please.

school... life... love... friends... family... happiness? where's the time?

Quit worrying about the stupid things. You have 4 years to be irresponsible. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time hanging out with your friends. So stay out late, go out on a Tuesday night when you have a paper due, Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink until sunrise. The work never ends... School does.

gah. well, i've been thinking about my life alot recently. I know. crazy huh? meghan? thinking? who died. i know. i know. but i have. about life. college. where i want to be in 20 years. what i'm doing with my life right now....
i've had alot of time by myself recently....
but i'm relatively sure for the important things i have a plan.
MEGHAN'S PLAN OF ATTACK:
June 6: Start beauty school... Gulp. i'm not old enough to be going to college! i'm only 16! :(
All summer: full time beauty school student. yikes...
In the fall: go to Maeser, 4 classes a day. and then go to beauty school part time until i get 2000 hours.
2012: graduate... :'(
Summer after graduation: work. save money. maybe take a few generals at UVU, if i get a scholarship...
Fall 2012: Start at UVU or Utah State or SUU, i'm hoping utah state or suu, and get all my generals, because in-state tuition is ALOT cheaper than out-of-state tuition.
After I get all my generals: Duke, Stanford, or Yale, hopefully Duke.
Major: Clinical Psychology, PreMed.
Minor: Criminal Profiling :]
Graduate from Duke (hopefully) with high honors :]
Go to Harvard Med School.
Graduate.
Start my own clinics all over the country, so i can travel. :]
Get hired by the FBI.
And after that? I have no idea.
Hopefully i'll fall madly and deeply in love with someone along the way. someone who won't mind i get grumpy when i'm stressed. or who won't mind that i don't want to be the typical stay-at-home mom. or who won't mind that i can't cook to save my life. someone who will love me for all those things would be nice...
and maybe somewhere along the way, i'll figure out that i'm not supposed to be a psychiatrist. and that'll be okay.

so, as you can see, my life is basically all planned. when am i allowed to be spontaneous and happy?
well, let me tell you.
all those nights that i spent just driving around with Chandler and just talking.
all those random adventures i went on with Kate.
just randomly going shopping with ky and kems.
having some down time at home
and decided to, instead of doing my ever
mounting stack of homework,
watch 4 hours of criminal minds.
going to support my mom at her pack meeting
when i had 2 position papers due for MUN, the next day.
and i hadn't even started them.

you just gotta be happy. gotta love life. love the good. love the bad. love the memories. and love the mistakes.
life is too short to regret anything. love the life you are living. life is way funner, yes, i just said that, that way. :]


Also, i just found this article. (thanks Cody Foster! :]) i think you should read it.
http://m.yahoo.com/w/ynews/article/mostpopular/4?url=http%3A%2F%2Fxml.news.yahoo.com%2Fus%2Fnews%2Frss%2Frichstoryrss.html%3Fu%3D%2Fap%2F20110415%2Fap_on_re_us%2Fus_obit_world_s_oldest_man&.ts=1302865392&.
intl=US&.lang=en&.tsrc=yahoo&ref_w=frontdoors

But, in case you don't want to, i'd like to share with you my favorite part.

"Here's the world's oldest man's secret to a long life:

Embrace change, even when the change slaps you in the face. ("Every change is good")

Eat two meals a day ("That's all you need.")

Work as long as you can
("That money's going to come in handy.")

Help others ("The more you do for others,
the better shape you're in")

Then there's the hardest part.
It's a lesson Breuning said he
learned from his grandfather:
Accept death.

"We're going to die.
Some people are scared of dying.
Never be afraid to die.
Because you were born to die."

I'm pretty sure that guy is my new hero. anyways... that was a really long post. but i love you all. that's the truth. and... yes. :]

I love you.
Alot.
Thank you for reading.
you're amazing.
and beautiful.
inside and out.
that is all. :]

Thursday, April 14, 2011

yes,,thishappenedtome

There's something that happens to us when we say yes to our painful experience. Not yes as in "Yes, I loved it," but "Yes, this is so. Yes, this happened to me." Instead of "No, I don't want this to be true. This didn't happen to me. They wouldn't have done that." Look at all the energy it takes to say no to reality. When I was ready and able to say "Yes, I was hurt. Yes, my life was damaged by others, now what?" That’s the point when my life started to change.
ilovelife.
justbecauseirealizedthis.

life is good.
live it.
love it.
laugh at it.
be happy.
every minute you spend unhappy,
is60secondsofperfecthappinessyoujustthrewaway. :]

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

day... i don't really care.

Hotchner: This is Special Agent Spencer Reid.
Gideon: Doctor Reid.
Hotchner: Doctor Reid, our expert in well everything.

This is Dr. Spencer Reid. From criminal minds.

and i am pretty sure he is the coolest guy ever. he's a genius for one, and we knows all kinds of random things like me!, and he's really attractive... always an added bonus :]

but yes. i gave up on the whole 30 day challenge thing...

[i got bored...]
the whole bored thing happens alot...

well, i'm tired. and so i'm sleeping.
in my bed.
not at my computer.

goodbye.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Day 8: short term goals for this month.

In a world of comparison and conformity, make your own statement. Honor your own truth. Have the courage to be yourself; risk speaking your own thoughts and claiming your emotions. Share your vulnerabilities, tears, doubts, and insecurities; let others experience the real you. Have the courage to be yourself and realize that you are a wonderful person.
my goal: to be awesome.
how?: i'm going to be me. and no one else. i'm going to have fun, be crazy, live life to the fullest. cause you never know how long you have.
other goal: have the best anti-prom night ever. that's all.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Day 7: someone who has made the most impact on my life...

Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. This person is one you could forever talk to. They understand you in a way that no one else does or even could. This person is your soul mate, your best friend. Don't ever let them go, for they're your guardian angel sent from heaven above.
Disregard me, awkwardly making this wonderful picture, well, un-wonderful.
for all you have not had the chance to meet this wonderful young man, his name is marc luthy. and he is sincerely my best friend. i know what you're thinking. date? boyfriend? umm... how is that possible? i know. it's been hard. but he is truely the most amazing person i have ever met, and he is my best friend. he is going to be at my wedding, and i have to approve his wife [: it's just how it is. teeheehee

Day 6: favorite superhero

&& sometimes, our heroes are just normal people. and that's what makes them so special.

i have so many heroes. like kems. and chandler. and marc. and kate. and kyli. and ethan. and angela. and cami. and brock. and amanda. and odeion. and hadleigh. and jared. and harrison. and skyler. and briana. and nikki. and mark. and so many other people.

they are my heroes because they know how to be themselves. they don't try to be anything for the world, and for that, they are my heroes.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Day 5: somewhere i've been

Life isn't about getting somewhere. It's about finding love, and joy, and happiness in being where you are right then. About finding beauty in every where you go, and loving who you're with and where you're at.

I went to sweethearts with an
amazing guy and had the
best time ever.
I went to the Snow College Math
Competition with my best friend and
totally failed the test, but made
many more great friends :]


I went to California with Choir
and made alot of really great new
friends.
I just love my family too much to
describe and we go to my grandparents
house every week.



Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The Rescue

please rescue me from myself....

Verse 1:
I'm running backwards in the rain
Got my hand up for a taxi
I finally got her name
Then we slipped into the backseat

I whisper, "are you okay?"
she nods her head with feeling
I could see the pain
and I can not explain how

Chorus:
I am captivated by
the way you look tonight
and I've seen what you've been into

So I will never cross the line
I won't tell you any lies
I was sent here for the rescue

Verse 2:
She couldn't see past his stare, when desire took them over
With a quick and simple prayer she cried, "God bring this to closure"
"I can not take this anymore and I know that what I'm waiting for
is so much bigger, so much better, get me out, please deliver"

So I'm here breaking down your door
Calling out your name
I want to take away the pain
You know I'm here like I was before
Screaming out your name
Waiting for the change

Chorus:
I am captivated by
The way you look tonight
And I've seen what you've been into

So I will never cross the line
I won't tell you any lies
I was sent here for the rescue

Choir:
Leave your burden, weak and weary, I will lead you home
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound

i just heard this song, by tyler ward, and i cried. no joke. it kind of... it totally describes my feelings right now. and i just need to get this out. please... rescue me from:
[my self doubt]
[my low self esteem]
[all the memories]
[greif]
[pain...]
[fear]
[pressure to be someone else]
[uncertainty]
[trials]
[broken heart... 3/>]
[mental disorders...]
[being alone]
[loving someone all wrong for me]
[getting hurt]
[other people]
[myself....]
 
i just.... don't know what to do anymore.

Day 4: A habit i wish i didn't have...

Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing
it is! it's totally true.

my least favorite bad habit, i mean i have alot of bad habits; this is just the worst, is my perfectionism. when it take you 3 hours to put your socks in the sock drawer, no joke this has happened, you know you have a serious problem. that is all.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Day 3: my friends

100 memories, 200 jokes, 300 great times, 400 secrets, 1 reason: best friends!
i absolutely adore my friends. i'm basically sure that if i didn't have them, i wouldn't be here right now.


oh my friends. :]
 

  


i love each and every one of them, and so many more i don't have pictures for [:

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Day 2: Meaning behind your blog title.

Imperfection is individuality
it's true :]

well, i've never really thought about it. i mean, i have me. and that's basically all i want to be. but, it's true. no one else can ever be like me. so why should i try to be anyone different? i try to be completely honest on this blog, so i am being me. and only me. hence, the blog title :]

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Day 1: A recent pic, plus 15 random facts :]

I don't wanna be like them, all hair and make-up and short skirts, and all that, well, perfectness. I don't want all the boys drooling over me. I don't want any of that. I just wanna be me. I'm true to myself and that's all that matters. If guys like me for who I am, well then that's great... I know I've succeeded.
i really like that. a lot. and i don't know why. haha

sorry it's blurry haha

15 random things about me :]
*i am completely and totally addicted to Criminal Minds :]
*totally in love. with a boy. i know :P crazy, right?
*i blog. pretty much everyday.
*i'm a 4.0 student, cause i love school. and i work really hard to get where i am.
*my friends are cooler than yours. that's the truth. 
*i hate pictures. unless i'm the one taking them. :)
*i'm secretly in love with raw califlower.
*i wear tutu's in my free time :)
* and i run when i'm stressed. away. around. behind. close to. near. and i love running. destresses me.
*pink and yellow are my favorite colors.
*i love wearing shorts and a large teeshirt. it kind of defines my style. :]
*I am going to beauty school next year.
*i hate girls. so much. most of the time, i can't even stand them.
*i have given up on dairy, cause it makes my tummy hurt.
*i have no gallbladder! it's all gone!

30 Day Challenge

People call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat or a prostitute
teeheehee random quote :] i enjoy it alot.
well, there's this thing called the 30 day challenge. and theres quite a few of them. one for facebook. a few for myspace. and this one. specifically for blogs :] so i'm conforming and doing it. cause i'm awesome :]
Day 1: A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 2: The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 3: A picture of you and your friends.
Day 4: A habit you wish you did not have.
Day 5: A picture of somewhere you've been.
Day 6: Favorite super hero and why.
Day 7: A picture of someone/something that has had the greatest impact on you.
Day 8: Short term goals for this month and why.
Day 9: Something you're proud of in the past few days.
Day 10: Songs you listen to when you are: happy, sad, bored, hyped, and mad.
Day 11: Another picture of you and your friends.
Day 12: How did you find out about Blogger and why did you made one?
Day 13: A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 14: A picture of you and your family.
Day 15: Put your iPod on shuffle - First 10 songs that play.
Day 16: Another picture of yourself.
Day 17: Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.
Day 18: Plans/dreams/goals you have.
Day 19: Nicknames you have; why do you have them.
Day 20: Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.
Day 21: A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 22: What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 23: Something you crave for a lot.
Day 24: A letter to your parents.
Day 25: What would be found in your bag/purse?
Day 26: What do you think about your friends?
Day 27: Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28: A picture of you last year and now. How have you changed since then?
Day 29: In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30: Your favorite song.