verge of tears.

i lost my best friend today.
fortunately, i was there, holding her hand. 


i love you grandma.
i haven't known you very long, and i know you have been sick for a long time, but i miss you so much already. i will live on in your legacy; thank you so much for trusting me with your family, and your people. i love you, and i will never forget this morning i got to spend with you.

my little brother is the cutest thing ever.(:

for his teen living class, he had to bring home a "baby" and take care of it for the weekend. right? ((i had a bag of flour, but that's a completely different story.))
my "little" brother is 6'2", weighs over 300 pounds, and is, as a freshman, training with the AF High football team. 
big kid.
and he's carrying around this tiny little baby with such care, it's the most adorable thing i have ever seen in my whole life. 
i love it when i see the soft side of my brothers. 
((those times are rare, few, and far between, as they are usually either decking on each other, or me, or hanging out with their friends and scaring people. true story.))

good morning.(:

it's been a great morning.(:
most people ask me why i'm a morning person, and you know, i tried to figure it out. i really couldn't, until this morning. i'm a Child of the Light. in both a physical and spiritual sense. Christ, my Light, is the center of my life, and i love Him more than anything in the world. Ephesians 5: 8-10 says, "For ye were sometimes darkness, but now are ye light in the Lord: walk as children of light: (For the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness and righteousness and truth;) Proving what is acceptable unto the Lord." 
i try, everyday, to be what the Lord would have me be. He is my eternal example, and, i know, that, through Him, i will be guided to the people who are open, and understanding, and who will accept my message of Salvation for ALL souls. 
i love my personal mission, i love who i am following, i love everything about my life right now.(:

sooo, i hate him.

i love it when people think that, just because i have bipolar, i am going to freak out and kill someone. 
NOT.
i do not love that at all.
it BOTHERS me.

i'm just a country girl with a tiara.(:

i went around trying to get sponsors from my pageant today.(: i was wearing a jean skirt and cowboy boots.(: haha i was told to be myself, and that's what i am. country girl through and through.
one of the managers asked me who i am. i said "i'm just a country girl with a tiara, grateful for the opportunities i have been blessed with." 
yeah, it got a $100 sponsorship.(:
you just gotta be yourself. gets you places.(:

a penny for my thoughts, oh no, i sell them for a dollar/

just a little thought:
if we woke up everyday with the determination for it to be the best day ever, who, then, could stand in the way?


i said a prayer this morning, not unlike any other morning, but this time, it was different. this time i was forgiven, and this time, my same things i say everyday, meant something different. they meant i was a new person. so, in that context, i'm going to "let my light so shine before men that they might see my good works, and glorify my Father, which is in Heaven."
i'm ready to represent.(:


p.s. it's a tiara day.(: today, every state finalist in the country is wearing their tiara.(: i'm connected to a family of people i have never even met before.(: i.love.my.life.(:

i love Him.

It is more effective to spend time talking to Christ about a man than talking to a man about Christ, because if you are talking to 
Christ about a man earnestly, trustingly, in the course of time you cannot help talking to the man effectively about Christ.


i love my communication with my Best Friend. 
He's my Savior, 
and i am permanently and eternally indebted to Him.
the best part?
He's ALWAYS listening.