i feel like i'm drowning in ice water...

there are only 2 things i want in my life right now that i don't already have.
1.) a new phone. one that, oh i don't know, actually calls people? yeah. that would be great. stupid phone. do your job.
2.) parents who actually care about me as a person. yes, they care about me because i'm their daughter and blah, blah, blah. i've heard it all. but they don't care about me as a person. they care about being able to say "my daughter is a 4.0 student at maeser. my daughter is modeling. my daughter takes beautiful pictures. my daughter has the cleanest room on the block" blah. that's all they care about. not me.