loathing. unadulterated loathing.

okay. so this is really getting out of hand.
i got 45 minutes of sleep last night.
45 MINUTES.
this is NOT working for me. 
i can live on 2 hours. 
not 45 minutes.
i feel like ripping everyone's throats out, and kicking babies.
it's a SERIOUS problem.


i do not feel like going to church.
i do not feel like doing my hair.
i do not feel like putting on makeup.
i do not feel like wearing a dress.
i feel like crying.
i feel like staying in my pajamas all day.
i feel like *sleeping*. 
because i need it.
i.need.sleep.
i just want to sleep....