smile. show the world that, today, you are a little bit stronger than you were before.

we got a call at about 3 o'clock this morning... haha woke everyone up. but it was aunt who lives in texas. my first thought? tornadoes took out her house. ((it's tornado season and they've already had 12 touch down in the last week.)) but they were okay. she works at an experimental hospital. we've been working relatively close with them for a while now, about one of my health problems. we actually, for my senior trip, are going to russia to work with the international branch of this company to try an experimental procedure. 
you see, after about 2 and a half years of not being able to eat much of anything, tests, tests, tests and more tests, 3 scopes ((one of which did not end well. the other, i ate an orange right after... so much pain in gandolofo's lobby because my boyfriend wouldn't let me go home alone. awww.)), enough different solutions to drip, drip my blood into to make even a sick person feel sick, and about 12 different specialists doctors all across the country, thank heavens for insurance, someone finally did the right test, dripped my blood into the right sticky stuff, and voila. the prognosis: gastroparesis. basically, my vagus nerve is dead, probably from one of two things: when they took out my gallbladder, they cut the wrong vein thing and damaged the nerve. or, when i broke my tailbone, i damaged the nerve. either way, i have a damaged vagus nerve. that nerve controls basically how the digestive system works. how your stomach expands and contracts. how your intestines moved food through your bowel, etc. so, my stomach doesn't move the food along, it just sits there. gross huh. that's why i throw up and am sick to my stomach so much.
but, anyways, the company my aunt works for is doing an experimental test to try to correct gastroparesis. basically it's a pace maker for that nerve. it sends little shocks to make your stomach contract the way it should. i'm one of the first people in utah to be getting it, but i'm excited to see if it works. anything will be better than this. jussayin'. 
my grandma is so cute. she decided we're going to trafalga today. because it's my last day of spring break, cause i get surgery tomorrow. so, me, and my little cousins, are going to trafalga.(: i can't wait. i love my cousins. and they're just what i need right now. 3 of the cutest, sweetest, most peppy, confident little children i have ever met.(: i love them.
oh, they're still arguing over my ex-boyfriend. jessica pulled taylor's hair over it yesterday. haha i think it's cute that my 7, 9 and 11 year old cousins are fighting over my 18 year old ex-boyfriend. how cute are they? (: the cutest. haha