untitled.

take my hand
and take my whole life too.

maybe we're just kids who grew up too fast.

mistakes were made.
consequences are being dealt with.
and it sucks. 
a lot.

in other news:
one of my favorite songs to work out to:
Eyes On Fire-Blue Foundation.
i never knew it was so violent. 
wow. haha 
listen for yourself.

 

you're flawless.

i'm falling guys. hard.
and i'm terrified. 
but i can do this.
i know.

if you know me at all, 
you'd know that i have spent the last 2 years stuck on the same boy. 
crazy huh?
but he met his dream girl, and he's happy.
and, oddly enough, i'm happy for him. 
honestly.
i am.

but i met a new boy.
and i'm not going to say i'm in love,
because chances are i'm not. 
but i think i like this feeling.

his name is cole.
we met at school,
he's in my criminal justice class.
he has blonde hair, and blue eyes that you can just get lost in.
he's smart, and he's not afraid to tell you how he feels.
we've had some pretty intense debates.
he doesn't mind that i've made mistakes.
big ones.
he wants to meet my parents and brothers.
he asked me on a date.
we're going to see side effects. 
so stoked:)

i kind of feel like i am in junior high again.
giggly, giddy, girly. 
but, you know, i like it.
i like that i feel this way about someone else.
i honestly didn't think i ever would.

in other news: i have some huge decisions to make.
but i talked through some things yesterday and i feel 20 million pounds lighter.
it was funny,
i didn't even know i was angry.
oh but i was.
angry enough to cry.
but it's all okay now.
people change.
things happen.
and i understand that now.

we're moving.
in 2 weeks.
it's pretty crazy packing up high school.
all the memories.
all the memories...
i haven't gotten much packed.
i've mostly only sat in the middle of my bedroom and cried.
something reminds me of my penguin.
something reminds me of my grandma.
something reminds me of when i was happy and normal.
something reminds me of before the mistakes...
then i wipe off the tears until i find something else.
i never knew how many memories i had in this room.

but it is going to get better.
i just have to keep that in mind,
and i can get through the day. 
i can get through any day.

meghan's rules for being awesome:

*risk more than is required (especially when playing poker).
*learn more than is normal.
*be strong.
*show courage.
*breathe.
*excel.
*love.
*lead.
*speak what your heart knows is true.
*live your values.
*laugh.
*cry.
*innovate.
*simplify.
*adore mastery.
*release mediocrity.
*aim for genius.
*stay humble.
*be kinder than expected.
*deliver more than is needed.
*exude passion.
*shatter your limits.
*transcend your fears.
*inspire others by your bigness. 
*dream big but start small.
*act now.
*don't stop. 
*change the world.

broken.

Wake up to a sunny day
Not a cloud up in the sky.
And then it starts to rain.
My defenses hit the ground
and they shatter all around,
so open and exposed.

I found strength in the struggle,
face to face with my trouble.

Chorus:
When you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're trying but you can't hold on anymore.
Every tear falls down for a reason.
Don't just stop believing in yourself
when you're broken.

Little girl don't be so blue.
I know what you're going through.
Don't let it beat you up.
Hitting walls and getting scars
only makes you who you are,
makes you who you are. 

No matter how much your heart is aching,
there is beauty in the breaking.


Chorus:
When you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're trying but you can't hold on anymore.
Every tear falls down for a reason.
Don't just stop believing in yourself
when you're broken.

Better days are gonna find you once again.
Every piece will find its place. 
When you're broken, when you're broken...


Chorus:
When you're broken in a million little pieces
and you're trying but you can't hold on anymore.
Every tear falls down for a reason.
Don't just stop believing in yourself
when you're broken.

mind trip

If two past lovers remain friends, they are either still in love, or never were.

What is being in love? Being in love is when you continue to love somebody even when there is no chance of that love ever being returned.