people.i.couldn't.live.without

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything- Muhammed Ali

Kemsley Corell

this girl. she has probably helped me through more things than any other person i have ever met. she is pretty much my soul sister. we finish each other’s sentences, can communicate without talking and are pretty much inseparable. we even had our socratic teacher convinced we were sisters! :] i love her, kind of a lot.

Marc Luthy

i honestly don’t know where or who i’d be without this child. he is so amazing, and kind of really cool. even though he hurts himself a lot, he never fails to make me laugh, even when I don’t want to smile. && i love him. alot. :]

Kate Winward

oh my. what to say? kate. I love her a lot. she pretty knows everything about me, like how crazy and random and weird I am, but she still chooses to be seen with me in public. she has such a sweet, giving spirit and I love her so much.

Chandler Merkley

because he truly is one of my best friends. whether it is just random trips to walmart to get donuts, or adventures up the canyon just talking, this boy never ceases to amaze me. even though there was some weird hormonal stuff goin’ on there in the beginning, he is seriously one of the sweetest, most caring people I have ever met. and I’m pretty sure he came and visited me every single day I was all surgery-ish. don’t think I could thank him enough.

Kyli McPherson

she’s my math buddy! :] and Mr. Watabe seems to think we are interchangeable. :) but she has helped me through a lot too, because we have/go through a lot of the same things, and that’s really cool :] nice to know I have a friend who always has great advice and I love her for it :]

and yes, i am a creepy facebook stalker. stolen picture from facebook :] but i think it's adorable. and very ky.

the.unhealthy.addictions

unhealthy obsession #1: MARSHMALLOWS

I just love them. they are so gooey and chewy and I pretty much live on them :]

 

 

unhealthy obsession #2: SillyBandz
"Holy cow, Meghan? Do you think you have enough silly bandz?" "Umm... Nope." It's true. I have a few. Well, probably more than a few. I have alot. And I am a little afraid to count them. There are probably like... 300 easily. But i like them!!! :] so i'm probably gonna get more. justsoyouknow :]

meghan.lanae

i'm meghan lanae. 
i like to pretend I’m pretty awesome. sometimes, and on tuesdays.
i love my friends with all my heart, and i don’t know what i’d be without them.
i am a junior at Karl G. Maeser Preparatory Academy. before i went to that school, i didn’t know how to spell preparatory. just thought you should know :]
i really like square-y smiley faces, like this one :]
i still sleep with 4 stuffed animals, a unicorn that my daddy gave me when we left California but he had to stay back. my doll named babs-la-blank. i got her when i was 5 and i love her with all my heart. my teddy bear from my parents for valentines day today, and my stuffed elephant named howard i got from my aunt on the day of my gallbladder removal surgery.
oh yes. i occasionally have problems with my absence of a gallbladder. no one really knows.
i ALWAYS have a flower, or clip, or something accessory-ish in my hair. i’m a little addicted. not gonna lie.
and i am really random.
oh! and i probably have a few too many silly bands. or at least that’s what everyone tells me. :]
i like polka dots [:
i have a “happy” collage on the back of my bedroom door. i kind of love it a lot :]
i'm 16 years old and i'm only now learning how to cry.
i spent a long time completely numb. not feeling happiness, saddness, anything. i just existed.
but not anymore.[:
i'm alive. i'm living. i'm dreaming. i'm thriving. i'm striving. i'm dying, but that's okay[:
i love fashion. almost no one knows that about me, but i love it.
i love anything vintage. if it's old, or from the 80's, i love it.
music is my life. i listen to it everyday, and i don't know what i'd do without it.
i'm secretly a 4.0 student. but it's a secret. so don't tell anyone.
i have feelings! i know! crazy? yeah.
i know i may be young, but i have been heartbroken. i have been in love. i know i have, and it doesn't matter that you don't think so.
i have one of the worst cases of OCD i've ever seen.yay for CBT[:
i save text messages, just so i can read them over and over[:
my best friend is a boy. basically all of my friends are boys.
i hate girls. it's not a problem.
i have 2 pair of toms, and i'm pretty sure they are the most comfortable things i have ever put on my feet[:
i'm practically vegetarian, i have celiacs disease and i'm lactose intolerant. yeah... resturants hate me[:
my closest friend doesn't exist, and i'm okay with that[:
i am only me, and that’s exactly who i wanna be. cause if i wasn’t me, then who would i be?
and my FAVORITE dr. seuss quote (i’m a little obsessed with that man, btw) is: “I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”

i am eating marshmellows hidden under my bed.
i am playing the piano when i'm stressed.
i am singing at the top of my lungs when no one is around.
i am going crazy at school dances, and just having fun.
i am only crying in the shower.
i am proud to be an american.
i am making lists, and checking things off.
i am staring at the stars, and hoping for a falling one.
i am watching lightening out my bedroom window, and not being able to sleep until the storm is over.
i am the polka dots that cover my bedroom.
i am spending 23 minutes on facebook at 2 in the morning.
i am an over-acheiver.
i am having things come out of my mouth that i don't think through.
i am watching Disney Channel and Cinderella movies in my "spare time".
i am tapping 8 times on the wall outside my bedroom before i enter it.
i am CSI, Criminal Minds and Bones.
i am a lot of good ideas, and high aspirations.
i am printing double sided to save the earth.
i am wearing a tutu to the Winter Formal, just because i could.
i am a hopeless romantic.
i am decorating my binders 2 months before school starts.
i am pink and yellow streamers that cover my houes for my sweet 16.
i am the enthusiastic maker of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, although i'm allergic to peanuts.
i am learning new words by reading the dictionary.
i am camelot and shakespeare.
i am my grandmother's number one granddaughter.
i am a bit overly dramatic.
i am not being able to form logical sentences.
i am the world's pickiest eater.
i am heart broken...
i am getting over the loss of two really great friends.
i am making some really great new ones.
i am staying up until one in the morning doing homework on the second day of school.
i am banana milkshakes after dinner.
i am glitter in my veins and hot pink, through and through.
i am homemade root beer and barbequed corn with all my best friends.
i am kinda crazy, a little loud, sometimes obnoxious, a little out there, but, in the end,
i am just me.

same ol' story, just a different month

you can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. it's when the mere thought of losing a friend can bring you to tears almost instantly. the pain you are beginning to feel can crush your entire heart. yet everything that you try to do to solve the problems only push them further and further away from you, when the only chance of getting back to the way things were in the beginning is to hope this person realizes what they may be losing.

i'm not afraid of losing the you i have. i'm afraid of losing the friend that i love in you. i'm afraid of having one less person i can talk to. i'm afraid of losing the you i love, the one i can be crazy and just me with. the one i can run to when i'm crying and know you'll be there. i'm afraid of losing that you.

love,    
meghan.lanae   

We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments. But great moments often catch us unaware-- beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.

beautiful quote. i kind of love it alot. and it's so true. we sit around waiting for some huge event to change our whole lives, and that does happen sometimes. but more often we are changed by the cute, little moments that, looking back, mean everything. <3

my.daisy.list

The Daisy List is the ever growing inventory of things to do before I’m pushing up daisies. They aren’t in any particular order. Some are huge, some are small and the rest lie somewhere in between. I may never be able to tick them all off but I’m sure going to have fun trying!

Hike into Machu Picchu

Go on a seaplane island picnic

Take a canoe out and have a picnic

Get a pedicure and manicure

Visit Canada

Go on an ocean racing yacht

A photography workshop for Roy

Ride an elephant

Teepee camping trip to see the northern lights of Canada

See the Melbourne Cup live with friends

Go to the Aussie Open

Go to a Space Center

Look into a volcano

Climb a mountain

Be part of a movie

Go sky diving

Meet Oprah

Check out Spain

Have a giant bonfire with friends

Make a giant chocolate chip cookie

Go on an African safari

Drive the Great Ocean Road

See Ayers Rock

Plant a herb garden

Go heli skiing

Hot lap in a V8 racing car

Go to an outdoor movie

Write a children’s book

Autobahn(:

Publish a book

Swim with wild dolphins

Spend a day at a spa with my favourite girls

Take Roy to a Laker's game, front row, center court.

Spend 3 months getting my body into shape

Buy Mum a personal shopping and style consultation

Go to a health retreat

Take in a show at the local theatre

Totally lazy day watching movies with Roy (preferably a rainy day)

Pay a toll for the next car at a toll gate

Get Roy hot laps in.. that one car he loves that starts with a K that I can never spell right(:

Stay at Secrets on the Lake at Montville

Go to Turkey for the Gallipoli service on ANZAC day

Go hot air ballooning

Go white water rafting

Make a cupcake stack for someone’s birthday

Get a dog from an animal refuge

Go to Thailand

Ride a camel

Plant a tree

Sleep under the stars

Adopt a little girl from Russia

Learn to juggle with 3 balls

Stay in an over water bungalow

Own my own island

Destroy a computer

Actually have a 3 course meal

Donate blood

Run a successful business

Tour with a major band

Stay with Roy in Manzanillo

Go to Bedarra Island

Go on a house boat

Ski a double black diamond run

Visit Pearl Harbor

Try zorbing (i mean with a name like that:))

Take m children on a Disney cruise

Cuddle a koala

Gold class movie night

Beach horse ride

Watch a sunset in the desert outside Dubai

Go on the “Ice Breaker” trek to the South Pole

Take Roy on a rally driving experience

Go to a yoga class

Take Roy on a boardwalk bike ride, picnic and swim at the beach

Harbour yacht cruise with Roy's family

Take out a pontoon BBQ boat with friends

Picnic dinner overlooking the beach

See the pyramids

Have a chef cook our family dinner at our house

Get a hot stone massage

Surprise someone with a dozen red roses

Volunteer at a charity event

See the great wall of China

Watch “Gone With the Wind”

Visit Prague

Fly first class

Go to a restaurant and order dessert first

Go around the world visiting the major city in every country

A Short Note, More to Come

And I just don't want to live without you...I hope that's not a problem

Well,I think, i've been thinking way too much about his mission. him being the love of my life. he will be 19 in january, and in my religion, 19 year old boys, and 21 year old girls, have the oppertunity to go and preach about our gospel for 2 years. and it's an amazing oppertunity, and I know i shouldn't be worried about him going... I guess i'm not worried about him, the Lord will protect him and he'll come home refreshed and more spiritually uplifted, and I know that, i'm worried about me. worried that i love him too much. or worried that i'm going to fall madly head over heels in love with someone else while he's gone... i know. i know what you're thinking, "maybe you and him weren't meant to be". and i know that's a very good possibility. I mean how often do high school relationships even lead to anything? hardly ever. But i don't want to lose him, even if he is only meant to be a friend. youknow? i want him at my wedding, and to know and love my husband and I basically don't want me and him to end up like my ex... I just love him too much, as a person, and a Son of my Heavenly Father. he really is amazing, and someday he's going to meet an amazing girl and take her to the temple. i know that. and if that is meant to be me, then cool. but if not, that's okay too :) I guess... I just have to trust the Lord and His plan for now. And someday this will all make sense.

love, me